do my actions match my words?

when i say i’m going to do something, it usually gets done. i have my moments. if i have good energy around something, i make sure it happens. when i don’t have ‘good’ energy around something, that’s where i falter in my life.

if i’m coming from a place of fear (knowing this can mean ‘false evidence appearing real’) or resistance or doubt, my actions may not match my words. i can procrastinate and make excuses and negotiate with myself to justify inaction or other action.

recently, i’ve found that i negotiate with myself over my own boundaries. i said that i don’t want to do x, but i negotiated with myself to make x okay as long as i don’t do y. then i cross that boundary by saying y is okay as long as i don’t do z. yikes.

none of this is really bad stuff, but i’m not holding my own boundaries. this definitely affects me and is likely to affect others if they are involved. with myself and others, i am becoming more conscious of the power of my words and actions being in alignment.

in the four agreements by don miguel ruiz, the first agreement is ‘be impeccable with your word. speak with integrity. say only what you mean.’ there are others facets to this impeccability, but ’say only what you mean’ is resonating with me.

when i make an agreement with myself or with another, do i really mean it? i may believe on an intellectual level that the agreement is possible, but do i REALLY mean it? am i being impeccable with my word? it’s a good question.

‘the word is not just a sound or a written symbol. the word is a force; it is the power you have to express and communicate, to think and thereby to create the events in your life. the word is the most powerful too you have as a human….’

am i being true to my word when i negotiate boundaries with myself? what message am i sending myself when i do this? what message am i sending others if i negotiate boundaries with them? do i trust myself? will others trust me? very good questions.

when i stay true to my word, boundaries and agreements with my words and actions, i feel good. i am in my power. i know this place. it is a place of being present to myself and those around me. it is true consciousness.

it can be hard. staying conscious and remaining present can be very difficult for me. i’m good at distracting myself and thinking about other people and their needs. it’s an easy place to hide out from myself and my power.

so, if you notice that something doesn’t match up between my words and my actions, let me know. i won’t take offense. i want to keep getting better and better. i want to be more present and be ‘in my power.’ calling me on my stuff will help me.

thank you for your ongoing support and love!

peace and love,
greg